jacyl

I really don't know what all to say, the past few months have been insanely busy.

Math 391
EE 201
CE 356
CE 331

Been keeping me very busy, should pass them all though.

So ya my lifes kinda dead now.

Anyway more to come latter.

Love ya all.

Ok check this out my EE201 teacher it totally out of it he is never shows for office hours his voice mail is full it takes him aweek to respond to an email.

So I wrote him a letter brifely explaining that i'm getting fursting with the homework

Dr. Prasad,

I am writing just to let you know that the homework that you assign can be very
frustrating at times.

I am quickly coming to appricate the complex and challanging nature of networks (which
I can say can be extremly satifsying to solve a network problem that has been
challanging me to fully understand the current class topic.), it however can be very
frustating to work though a homework problem and have no clue if the answer that I
have dirived is even a reasonable one. For example in Civil Engineering when I'm doing
work with soils or stresses in members and I come up with the answer to a problem I
have a 'gut feeling' if my answer is reasonable or not.

With networks however I don't have that feeling yet. Granted I know that the it is
something that comes with alot of practice, at this early stage in the game I am lacking
that feeling.

In order to help us acheive this 'gut feeling' of weather or not our answers are correct
and to help us better learn the material (one of the many things that I have learned in
Engineering is that the answer is almost as never important as the logic used to generate
the answer) when you assign the homework if you could provide the answer to the
problem so that when we solve our homework we will have instant feedback on weather
or not wee sovled the problem correctly.



-Joshua Davis


His responce:

Dear Joshua,

First of all I am sorry that you feel frustrated. Let me assure you, there is no need for
that. The important thing that you need to understand in class is how to analyze circuits.
Your classroom understanding of problem solving must be clear. That requires asking
questions. There is never a dumb question. That is my philosophy in teaching. You must
ask how and why, not recklessly of course. By asking these questions you will follow how
problems are solved. If there was one way to solve all problems I am sure someone
would have already made that money!! The roadmap for each problem is slightly
different unless they are the same problem with differnt values.

Since I have taken the time to reply in fair amount of detail you must be convinced that
I do care about what you wrote. You must develop that sense of problem-solving. I
mean this in a very positive way.

The challenge really is how you can apply KCL, KVL, and Ohm's Law in all combinations
to solve a problem. You apply current division principles where there is current division.
You apply voltage division wherever there is reason for voltage division. You combine
resistors in series and parallel whenever they offer the convenience of lumping several
elements into one. There is a difference between a souce and a load. A source produces
and a load consumes. If a load is assumed to consume "posite" power, a source by its
virtue would have to have a negative sign for computed power. Ideal sources are
considered lossless. Their value remains the same. No amount of current flowing through
an ideal voltage source can change the voltage across its terminals. This must mean that
the internal resistance is zero. Similarly no amount of voltage a current source can
change the value of an ideal current source. This must mean the internal resistance is
infinitely large, effectively an open-circuit. These are the types of concepts that are
helpful in solving problems. The fact that no two problems are alike gives the motivation
to learn the basic concepts very well. With that you can solve any problem. You don't
need answers to chech against. If you did everything meanigfully then your answers
must also mean something!!

Now my fingers are hurting. So I will stop.

I am sure you got my message.

Ram Prasad

He didn't even read my message, well he did but I don't think think it was in Engineering speak for him to understand it.

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To fully understand love it require two things.  The first, to love someone who doesn't love you back.  The second to have someone who loves you, who you don't love back.

In the last days of dating Annie she told me and I quote "I have never cared for anyone as much as I have cared for you, and the one thing I never want to do is to hurt you."  Ironic becase that is exactly what she did, she hurt me hard core, but that is the past put what I want to reflect on is what she told me, that classic quote.

She was telling the truth 100% but it wasn't until much latter that I fully understood what that quote meant, or fully expeced that she wasn't so cold hearted super bitch. 

What That quote really meant was this I know you love me but I will (or will never allow myself to) never return the feelings, and I know this is going to hurt like hell, but I really don't want to hurt you.

At the time I vowed I would never use that quote, or hurt someone the way she hurt me, but Karma often as other plans. 

We all belive at one time or another having unconditional love for someone is enough, that eventully the love you feel for the other person will someday be returened, or maybe they will grow to love you a fraction of the way that you love them, all  you have to do is wait it may be an hour or may be ten years, but someday it will be happen.  Who know maybe it will and maybe it won't, but I can tell you this much from personal experince, that it is far less painful to be rejected by your love than to be kept waiting by them.  Being rejected a little everyday is far more painful in the long run that that final cold break.  While it may seem like the end of the world it really isn't, becasue not to sound cliche "live goes on" you just have to give yourself time for you wounds to heal, and accept that there are in fact many other fish in the sea.

I also know when you fall deeply in love with someone for the first time and it doesn't work out, in the mind there is always a hollywood ending where playing lound music from a boombox will get though to your love. That there is something you could have done differently, or maybe if you are willing to change who you are, or if you treated the person better, maybe there could be some chance of it working out. But there comes a point when we just have to accpet that sometimes thing are just not meant to be.  Love clouds the judgment and prevents the mind from seeing this.  Which is why the person who does  not return the love cuts the ties, fully and without possibility of repair. 

You know it hit me the other day. Why do people get so upset when they get woken up like ten minutes before there alarm is supsosed to go off? I mean really does ten minutes of sleep make all that of a differnce? Will that ten minutes make or break your day?

Come on now people this is starting to chafe my brain. Feedback?

Sorry for the long silence, life has been nutz for the past month or so and I really haven't had the time to do even the vaguest shadow of a descent Live Journal Post but in the coming days there will be a full good and proper one.

Ok it has been awhile so I'll kinda try to keep it brief.

Get to do all my x-mass shopping on friday, not becasue I'm lazy or put things off to the last minute, it is rather becasue I get paid on Friday (and it will be a biggie to!).

At work we got the MOA GPS units, it requires three big boxes of stuff and the recivers look like the little flying dudes from Batteries Not Included! It can do just about anything GPS related, but the cool thing is the data collector runs WinCE so we can watch movies, play music (yup thats right even comes with stereo speakers, and will talk to you while you work.).

Ya, x-mass is on Friday so that means this weekend will mean lots of togehter time with friends and family. YAY...

Anyway, hope you all have a great x-mass, or whatever you decide to celebrate.

Ok it has been awhile so I'll kinda try to keep it brief.

Get to do all my x-mass shopping on friday, not becasue I'm lazy or put things off to the last minute, it is rather becasue I get paid on Friday (and it will be a biggie to!).

At work we got the MOA GPS units, it requires three big boxes of stuff and the recivers look like the little flying dudes from Batteries Not Included! It can do just about anything GPS related, but the cool thing is the data collector runs WinCE so we can watch movies, play music (yup thats right even comes with stereo speakers, and will talk to you while you work.).

Ya, x-mass is on Friday so that means this weekend will mean lots of togehter time with friends and family. YAY...

Anyway, hope you all have a great x-mass, or whatever you decide to celebrate.

Hell I don't know the semester is finally over, and normally I feel like yay I'm done, but for whatever reason this semester I'm kinda descending into a sprial of angst and misery. Not all that much fun, I really don't know why, well actually I do but well ya, just sucks all around. I think I need a swift kick in the head to pull my shit tougher or I'm never going to graduate.

My head kinda hurts and I'm always feeling dizey there is a pit the size of Texas in my stomache and overall I just feel blah.

Hopefully my some time in nature will sort all this shit out.

I hate college with a passion.
I hate everything about it.
I hate my major.
I hate the fact that I'm crap at college.

But I've come to far to turn around and go back.

Warning behind the cut is material that may not be suitable for young children or people with heart conditions. (Note Not the best topic to be viewed at work)

If you don't want to know then don't read.

( TMI )

Only three tests then I am on x-mass break!!!

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No matter how random, revealing, rude, naughty or pointless
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I promise to answer them 100% truthfully
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Yay so not only is there own software buggy, but it also contains MS code.  No wonder there were all sorts of problems with there machines.

Next weeks is my last week of classes, then off to Santa Fe to earn the money to pay for this wonderfull semester of schooling.

Then only three semesters left and then I'll be a Civil Engineer.  So that has got me started thinking again (ya I know it is risky but everyone needs to take a chance sometimes) about what am I going to do with this spiffy kewl degree once I get it?

Oh boy I'm getting nervous I might actually have to join the real word sooner rather than later.

 

Ariel


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Oh dear!

Here's wishing everyone out there a very happy T-day, and may your tummies be full of turkey and pie, and for you vegan types out there, may your tummies be full of tofo-turkey and pie!

I love PIE!!!

Must not Kill boss...Must not kill boss...must not kill boss...must kill boss...must kill boss

for the past two days he told me to work on the drainage plan, and now he says he doesn't want me to work on drainage plan //whines// this man needs more direction than a cubscout in a boy scout camp!

Kay i've decided this year i'm sending out rocken cards to people that would enjoy them!

If your intersted in one blast me your addy via e-mail to jacyl1982@gmail.com

yup yup yup!!!

only 75 minutes of class left tell I get to take and entire week off no class morrow...Ya skipping!!!
and going to check out da new HP movie tonight!!!

wont be in bed tell 4ish am!

I think I might of really broken some of the soft and squishie stuff in my shoulder the other day.

Do da good old pushups and when all of a sudden if felt this strange twinge in my shoulder, ingnored and kept using it, yesterday and today it is a very strange type of sore

ball o'pain right under da blade and kinda fingers out over the right side of my chest.

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